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WEDNESDAY FT. MAI 2

wednesday's child, ever full of woe

tragedies and maladies she can't let go

now she wanes with a brain so slow

memories and miseries that dissipate like snow

wednesday's child, born that cursed day

took one look around and she wished herself away

lost that lot, you don't get another say

child of misfortune that will never be okay


"What passing-bells for these who die as cattle?

— Only the monstrous anger of the guns.

Only the stuttering rifles' rapid rattle

Can patter out their hasty orisons."


wednesday's child, is she truly doomed?

has nothing to do so she's locked up in her room

making loud music, keeping quiet to her dad

lies inside her head saying no one understands

wednesday's child, poor pitiful thing

going to the park and jumping off the swing

feeling all the air breeze through her hair

falling to the earth, finally without a care


"No mockeries for them; no prayers nor bells;

Nor any voice of mourning save the choirs,—

The shrill, demented choirs of wailing shells;

And bugles calling for them."


wednesday's child, going on and on

she tries to do right but goes about it all wrong

drains her sorrow in nicotine and bongs

muscles giving in and she wishes she were strong

wednesday's child, ever full of fear

wishes to be better and wishes she weren't here

she's fought for so long but her thoughts are getting weird

makes a vow and takes a bow and curtain shuts to cheers


wednesday's child, is she truly doomed?

has nothing to do so she's locked up in her room

making loud music, keeping quiet to her dad

lies inside her head saying no one understands

wednesday's child, poor pitiful thing

going to the park and jumping off the swing

feeling all the air breeze through her hair

falling to the earth, finally without a care


"What candles may be held to speed them all?

Not in the hands of boys, but in their eyes

Shall shine the holy glimmers of goodbyes."

BITTER FT. MAI 2

flashback to black, there's a lack of love under these covers

galaxy imprints on the wall and ceiling and i

reach for you close, skin so warm, no more clothes and i'm feeling

naked to you, to your eyes and pisces mind and

once upon a time, we were tight-knit, with commitment

lovers adorned on our necks with this silver pendant

my gift to you on our first anniversary

and flowers in purple, your old favorite, now i don't know


all the months i gave to you

and all the times i got you through

and all the rhymes i wrote for you

and every little bit of love and

and everything i'm dreaming of

and then you go and shove it all away

please, can you hear me for fuck's sake?


all the times, the good, the bad

the ugly, what we almost had

and now i think of you and i

can't help but give a little cry

'cause i thought you might be the one

but i guess i just wasn't fun

so whatever, i'm clearing out my cache


guess i wasn't fun, now my heart is on the run

gave you all my love, and i come away with none

guess i wasn't fun, it's whatever 'cause i'm done

metal to my temple, pull the trigger of the gun


cut to the present, there's a distinct lack of you

and i have more questions than answers, cut back to

that scene, that bad dream, on a sunny day in april

when i got my blood drawn, you sat me down

and ended it all

only 20 minutes, and 3 days of consideration

lovers adorned on our necks with those silver pendants

now mine's in the drawer, 'cause no longer are we lovers

why'd you do this to me? do this to us? and all we knew? so-


all the months you gave to me

and getting me through everything

it's just not fair, the wear and tear

why do you get to disappear?

i wanted something that would last

not remnants of a darkened past

so please come back, and apologize to me


all the times, the good, the bad

the ugly, what we almost had

and now i think of you and i

just feel like ripping out my eyes

so i will never have to see

your face, or your anatomy

i just don't care anymore, you're such a bore


all the woes and all the throes of

smashing up someone's young love

and throwing every piece into the

trash and now someone will cash in

every little win, and every little sin

i feel on top, so why do i feel so low?


all the fears and all the tears and

all the beers, it all appears and

suddenly i understand that

you are not what life had planned, and

even though it's tragic, you will vanish just like magic

so begone, so long, you only did me wrong


guess i wasn't fun, it's whatever 'cause i'm done

metal to my temple, pull the trigger of the gun

VONNEGUT FT. MAI 2

manic highs, feeling the rise

romantic roller coaster ride

depressive lows, lack of control

i'm feeling down, i'm feeling slow

manic highs, the groans and sighs

the panic when you realize

depressive lows, life's many woes

convert it into purple prose


bipolar, a holy roller

high right now and full of dolor

full of color, run for cover

getting duller, rediscover

childish endeavors, and embarking in whatever

a lack of direction, lack of purpose

lack of drive and feeling worthless


euthymia is almost never

but it's cool, i'm fine, whatever

hospitals and medications

mourning rites and celebrations

genogram is full

and fruit falls from newton's hold

the disposition's prominent

the son of kurt vonnegut


up and then down

all around

endlessly a cycle

down and then up

had enough

waiting on st. michael


up and then down

all around

endlessly a cycle

down and then up

had enough

waiting on st. michael


euthymia is almost never

but it's cool, i'm fine, whatever

hospitals and medications

mourning rites and celebrations

genogram is full

and fruit falls from newton's hold

the disposition's prominent

the son of kurt vonnegut


manic highs, pleasant surprise

emboldened to behold our eyes

depressive lows, the ebbs, the flows

the polarizing equalize

manic highs, apostatize

and shed my shadow by moonrise

depressive lows, these episodes

now profit and serialize


bipolar, a high roller

who's harnessing the solar

growing up just like a flower

finally feeling empowered

but here comes the crash again

no more sails, no more wind

no more water, no more shores

only dread and static bores


up and then down

all around

endlessly a cycle

down and then up

had enough

waiting on st. michael


up and then down

all around

endlessly a cycle

down and then up

had enough

waiting on st. michael

SPLIT FT. MAI 2

structural dissociation

struggle with this cracked foundation

cultivated transmutation

traumatized collaboration

racked with some bad connotation

wish upon a constellation

pray for ego's conservation

an internal conversation


performing a magic act, now watch me disappear

watch me become somebody, someone new and strange and queer

performing like im singular and in the present tense

the multitudes are endless and the depth is immense


DID, a travesty

a blemish on my family

a burn hole in the tapestry

an eyesore for my sanity

DID, such majesty

in fracturing entirely

in recognizing tiredly

that there is something more to me


got a splitting headache like it's cracking into two

got some bats in the attic, losing every single screw

a troubling prognosis brought on by these tragedies

suck me down your throat until you're catching my disease


every stomach ache comes with a silver stomach lining

every heartbreak comes with some new nation that's dividing

no man is an island and the bell rings for this beat

acrid belly bile and neural rot secrete


looking in the mirror and not liking what i see

looking in the mirror and it's clearer, that face isn't me

it's some face that is misplaced and now i feel the need to flee

so i smash that fucking mirror and evade reality


because i am just so many and split in so many ways

never ever decide how i want to spend my days

because we are so torn, on the rack and in a daze

there's fractures in my blood my brain my body's dna


DID, a travesty

a blemish on my family

a burn hole in the tapestry

an eyesore for my sanity

DID, such majesty

in fracturing entirely

in recognizing tiredly

that there is something more to me


got a splitting headache like it's cracking into two

got some bats in the attic, losing every single screw

a troubling prognosis brought on by these tragedies

suck me down your throat until you're catching my disease


every stomach ache comes with a silver stomach lining

every heartbreak comes with some new nation that's dividing

no man is an island and the bell rings for this beat

acrid belly bile and neural rot secrete


got a splitting headache and i rip my scalp apart

it's so fleeting disagreeing like the beating of my heart

a dire sort of ire for the people in my head

whether it is nobler to be multiple or dead


every sort of breakdown brings about another split

chorus voices echo in my mind, i wish that they would quit

but if i had been alone throughout the days and months and years

there's a pretty good chance i'd succumb to all my fears