january 9th, 2026. friday.

fronting: uncertain

listening to: not very music-pilled today :P

reading: w3schools LOL

mood: euthymic

weather: cloudy. 40°f.

today has been a good day.

i've made plenty of progress on this website. you can just check the changelog for today's date to see what i've been up to, i don't really feel like putting it all into words right this moment.

i don't think i'm ready to publish the site just yet—the homepage isn't even done, and i'd like to finish the "about me" page. that being said, i have been making excellent strides. it's encouraging, because i've been sitting on wanting to make a personal site for a hot minute now. it's nice to know i can do shit, even if my focus isn't there in the beginning.

you know, when i was gearing up to work on this site today, i was thinking "man, i really wish i had a body double right about now." unfortunately, my boyfriend is busy, and none of my friends are available or interested in calling at the moment. and that's okay! i've just learned i don't exactly excel in working on my own. that said, when my boyfriend visited on wednesday (january 7th, 2026), he gave me a little doll from a gas station. i named him frankie. i have learned that frankie gives me the strength to code—all i gotta do is lean him against my monitor, and talk to him as if he's a real human person. it itches the "body double" center in my brain.

frankie the doll. the frankmeister.

other than the website work, i did a few things today!! i:

had a therapy session (it was good!! i like the program therapist i'm working with right now. i was able to identify the progress i've been making in treatment, as well as areas i may still need to work on).
took a two hour nap (considerably long nap, but a good length of time for me. i used to take 6+ hour naps, so this was "short" all things considered. slowly conquering my daytime fatigue!).
called my boyfriend (we were on the phone for an hour. now he's hanging out with a friend. i hope he's having fun!).
ate breakfast (chips + taco dip), lunch (pizza puff + insomnia cookies), and dinner (yummy culvers).

so all in all a rather "uneventful" day, but i am proud with the work i've done on this site. i don't have a job, i'm not in college—hell, i don't even have a working car right now. the only structure i have in my days is the intensive outpatient program i'm currently doing. that being said, it's nice to carve my own meaning out of the days. it's fun to work on passion projects. it's especially nice, considering today marks 3 weeks of sobriety. i am a marijuana addict (cue 100gecs), and struggled with my addiction for a long time, to the point i didn't even consider it an issue. since joining this IOP (a sober program) and getting myself clean, i've noticed wonderful improvements in my mental functioning, my mood, the efficacy of my meds... all in all, it was the right decision to make. i hate to be that guy that's annoying about his sobriety, but it really is a hugely important step for me at this junction in life. why do you think i have the sobriety counter on my homepage??

i'm sure i'll wax some more poetic about my sobriety/recovery some other time. for right now, i'm about ready to wrap up this blog post. i'm thinking of working on the about me page next. so i shall bid you adieu for now! thank you for reading this post, it means a lot to me. i hope you are well. good night!!

ok so that was a damn lie. i continued on the website grind. i finished my about me page like i mentioned, and honestly...? i think i'm going to make an "under construction" page, and then throw all caution to the wind and upload this damn site to neocities. so if you're seeing this... hello! :D